1 00:00:02,720 --> 00:00:04,170 I'm often asked... 2 00:00:05,170 --> 00:00:07,550 ...what is it that makes us different? 3 00:00:07,590 --> 00:00:11,830 What separates firefighters from ordinary citizens? 4 00:00:11,870 --> 00:00:13,870 The answer is simple. 5 00:00:13,910 --> 00:00:16,840 We will go where others will not. 6 00:00:16,870 --> 00:00:20,360 Today, we honor those members of the LAFD 7 00:00:20,390 --> 00:00:23,230 who acted so courageously 8 00:00:23,260 --> 00:00:26,710 during the Oceanus Blue cruise ship disaster last March. 9 00:00:26,750 --> 00:00:29,160 Acting captain, Henrietta Wilson. 10 00:00:29,200 --> 00:00:30,890 [applause] 11 00:00:34,100 --> 00:00:36,030 Firefighter Howard Han. 12 00:00:38,410 --> 00:00:41,040 Firefighter pilot Thomas Kindard. 13 00:00:43,940 --> 00:00:45,900 Firefighter Evan Buckley. 14 00:00:48,080 --> 00:00:51,120 And firefighter Edmundo Diaz. 15 00:00:52,630 --> 00:00:56,190 Without their singular tenacity and selflessness, 16 00:00:56,220 --> 00:00:58,880 and unmatched skill and teamwork, 17 00:00:58,920 --> 00:01:01,190 so many more lives would've been lost. 18 00:01:01,230 --> 00:01:05,090 Firefighters, on behalf of the Los Angeles Fire Department 19 00:01:05,130 --> 00:01:07,790 of the City of Los Angeles, we thank you. 20 00:01:07,820 --> 00:01:10,440 [cheering and whooping] 21 00:01:13,100 --> 00:01:14,100 [whoops] 22 00:01:14,140 --> 00:01:16,830 But we're not quite done. 23 00:01:18,250 --> 00:01:20,420 The quality of teamwork displayed here 24 00:01:20,450 --> 00:01:23,220 is a reflection not only of each individual's dedication, 25 00:01:23,250 --> 00:01:26,120 but the leadership of Captain Robert Nash. 26 00:01:26,150 --> 00:01:29,290 Captain Nash, for your record 27 00:01:29,330 --> 00:01:30,600 of outstanding service and leadership, 28 00:01:30,640 --> 00:01:32,920 in and out of uniform, 29 00:01:32,950 --> 00:01:36,470 the Los Angeles Fire Department would like to honor you 30 00:01:36,500 --> 00:01:38,820 with this Medal of Valor. 31 00:01:38,850 --> 00:01:39,820 Captain. 32 00:01:39,850 --> 00:01:42,440 [applause] 33 00:01:50,690 --> 00:01:53,040 Oh, uh, how about if I just hang on to it? 34 00:02:00,840 --> 00:02:02,150 [Bobby clears throat] 35 00:02:05,050 --> 00:02:06,160 Um... 36 00:02:07,980 --> 00:02:09,500 This isn't the first time 37 00:02:09,540 --> 00:02:11,640 these people have pulled me out of the drink. 38 00:02:13,650 --> 00:02:15,370 In more ways than one. 39 00:02:17,550 --> 00:02:19,690 Not sure why I deserve a medal for it. 40 00:02:19,720 --> 00:02:21,340 In my opinion, 41 00:02:21,380 --> 00:02:23,350 you got it right the first five times. 42 00:02:27,560 --> 00:02:30,150 [applause] 43 00:02:31,320 --> 00:02:34,080 ["Home on the Range" by Barry White playing] 44 00:02:37,740 --> 00:02:39,810 Man, isn't it crazy? 45 00:02:39,840 --> 00:02:41,050 We thought we were gonna get fired. 46 00:02:41,090 --> 00:02:43,810 And instead, we all got medals. 47 00:02:43,850 --> 00:02:46,330 -Enjoy it while it lasts. -That's my motto. 48 00:02:46,370 --> 00:02:48,160 Hey, Ravi, you know you don't have to eat everything 49 00:02:48,200 --> 00:02:49,510 at the buffet, right? 50 00:02:50,750 --> 00:02:52,580 Why else would I be here on my day off? 51 00:02:54,580 --> 00:02:56,520 [chuckles] 52 00:02:56,550 --> 00:02:58,900 So, that's him, huh? 53 00:02:58,930 --> 00:03:00,310 That's your old Cap? 54 00:03:00,350 --> 00:03:02,210 [Tommy] Yeah, that's Gerard. 55 00:03:02,250 --> 00:03:04,730 The way you guys talk about him, I assumed he was dead. 56 00:03:04,770 --> 00:03:07,220 Only in our hearts. 57 00:03:07,250 --> 00:03:10,670 Kindard. I thought you transferred out of here. 58 00:03:10,700 --> 00:03:12,220 Five years ago. 59 00:03:12,260 --> 00:03:13,500 I've been at Harbor Station ever since. 60 00:03:13,530 --> 00:03:16,360 That's right, I heard you got your wings. 61 00:03:18,050 --> 00:03:20,710 You know, it's good to see you haven't changed at all, Cap. 62 00:03:20,750 --> 00:03:23,030 It's good to see you didn't forget your training, Han. 63 00:03:23,060 --> 00:03:25,920 These floors are nice and shiny. 64 00:03:25,960 --> 00:03:28,030 You taught me right. 65 00:03:28,060 --> 00:03:30,240 Whenever I see some filth, I think of you. 66 00:03:30,270 --> 00:03:33,350 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah♪ 67 00:03:33,380 --> 00:03:35,380 ♪ Whoa...♪ 68 00:03:35,420 --> 00:03:38,420 -Oh. Thank you. -[chuckles] 69 00:03:38,450 --> 00:03:40,110 Okay, so where's your award? 70 00:03:40,150 --> 00:03:41,700 Oh, I'm just waiting 71 00:03:41,730 --> 00:03:44,050 on my refund check from the cruise line. 72 00:03:44,080 --> 00:03:45,980 [laughs] 73 00:03:48,400 --> 00:03:50,540 ♪ I wanna know...♪ 74 00:03:50,570 --> 00:03:51,920 What do you think that's about? 75 00:03:51,950 --> 00:03:53,540 ♪ 76 00:03:53,570 --> 00:03:55,370 I have no idea. 77 00:03:55,400 --> 00:03:56,710 ♪ I want to go home.♪ 78 00:03:56,750 --> 00:03:58,370 Firefighter Wilson? 79 00:03:58,410 --> 00:04:02,270 I just wanted to congratulate you personally. 80 00:04:02,310 --> 00:04:04,100 Olivia Ortiz. 81 00:04:06,170 --> 00:04:08,280 Councilwoman Ortiz. 82 00:04:08,310 --> 00:04:09,590 That's right. 83 00:04:12,320 --> 00:04:15,560 I am so sorry for your loss, ma'am. 84 00:04:15,600 --> 00:04:17,420 Thank you. 85 00:04:17,460 --> 00:04:20,080 You must be very proud of your hero wife. 86 00:04:20,120 --> 00:04:22,150 I am. 87 00:04:22,190 --> 00:04:24,600 Sadly, her heroics didn't extend to my son. 88 00:04:26,120 --> 00:04:28,120 Mama, can we have some more cake? 89 00:04:28,950 --> 00:04:30,990 Are these your children? 90 00:04:31,020 --> 00:04:34,480 This is, uh, Denny and Mara. 91 00:04:34,510 --> 00:04:37,440 Mm. I was told you only had a son. 92 00:04:37,480 --> 00:04:40,100 Mara's about to become my new sister. 93 00:04:40,140 --> 00:04:41,590 -[Ortiz] Oh. -They're adopting me. 94 00:04:41,620 --> 00:04:43,310 Oh, that's adorable. 95 00:04:43,350 --> 00:04:45,690 You know, children are such a blessing. 96 00:04:46,830 --> 00:04:48,320 Enjoy your moment. 97 00:04:48,350 --> 00:04:50,770 Not too much cake. 98 00:04:50,800 --> 00:04:52,290 Okay. [chuckles] 99 00:04:58,360 --> 00:05:01,470 [Bobby] You know, your name should really be on this, too. 100 00:05:01,500 --> 00:05:03,780 I asked them to include you, but... 101 00:05:03,820 --> 00:05:07,200 Except I'm not actually a firefighter. [chuckles] 102 00:05:07,230 --> 00:05:10,170 Is that what you and Chief Simpson were arguing about? 103 00:05:13,030 --> 00:05:14,340 Wasn't really an argument. 104 00:05:14,380 --> 00:05:17,140 He was trying to talk me out of something 105 00:05:17,170 --> 00:05:20,320 and he realized he couldn't, so he just finally accepted it. 106 00:05:20,350 --> 00:05:21,800 Accepted what? 107 00:05:21,830 --> 00:05:23,080 My resignation. 108 00:05:28,910 --> 00:05:32,360 I don't understand why you wouldn't talk to me about this. 109 00:05:32,400 --> 00:05:34,190 I'm just retiring. 110 00:05:35,230 --> 00:05:36,500 This had to happen at some point. 111 00:05:36,540 --> 00:05:38,230 And you know as well as I do 112 00:05:38,260 --> 00:05:40,470 that no one can do this job forever. 113 00:05:40,510 --> 00:05:42,060 Well, I sure as hell thought we were gonna try. 114 00:05:42,100 --> 00:05:43,990 Well, I'm tired of trying. 115 00:05:44,030 --> 00:05:46,170 Tonight was exhausting. 116 00:05:46,200 --> 00:05:48,380 Chief Simpson having us trot out there to perform 117 00:05:48,410 --> 00:05:50,210 for the cameras like a bunch of trained seals. 118 00:05:50,240 --> 00:05:52,350 We stand there and smile and everybody thinks we're heroes. 119 00:05:52,380 --> 00:05:53,660 You are. 120 00:05:53,690 --> 00:05:55,180 I'm not. 121 00:05:55,210 --> 00:05:57,180 Look... 122 00:05:57,210 --> 00:05:59,390 I know that you're under a lot of pressure. 123 00:05:59,420 --> 00:06:01,250 And I get needing to take a break 124 00:06:01,290 --> 00:06:04,190 or maybe even wanting to walk away from it all, 125 00:06:04,220 --> 00:06:06,710 but I'm worried that you're not thinking clearly. 126 00:06:07,880 --> 00:06:11,230 I mean, given everything that you've been through... 127 00:06:11,260 --> 00:06:12,750 Oh, you mean the universe deciding 128 00:06:12,780 --> 00:06:14,020 to drop a living reminder 129 00:06:14,060 --> 00:06:16,060 of my greatest failure on my doorstep? 130 00:06:16,090 --> 00:06:19,750 -Yeah, that's a lot. -You saved that man's life. 131 00:06:19,790 --> 00:06:21,550 It didn't make any difference. 132 00:06:31,560 --> 00:06:36,080 Look, if this is what you need, I will support it. 133 00:06:36,110 --> 00:06:37,880 I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier. 134 00:06:37,910 --> 00:06:40,430 That's okay. You just surprised me. 135 00:06:40,460 --> 00:06:43,570 And you know how I feel about surprises. 136 00:06:43,610 --> 00:06:44,710 Well, for what it's worth, you're not alone. 137 00:06:44,740 --> 00:06:46,400 Chief Simpson was pretty surprised, too, 138 00:06:46,440 --> 00:06:49,750 having his star captain resign at an event 139 00:06:49,780 --> 00:06:52,130 that was supposed to honor his star firehouse. 140 00:06:52,170 --> 00:06:54,060 He asked me not to tell anybody about it 141 00:06:54,100 --> 00:06:55,580 until he figures out how he wants to spin it. 142 00:06:55,620 --> 00:06:58,100 Look, I got to get out of this. 143 00:06:59,620 --> 00:07:03,070 And you're really sure about this? 144 00:07:03,110 --> 00:07:05,010 Walking away from the 118? 145 00:07:06,590 --> 00:07:08,490 I don't have anything more to give. 146 00:07:11,500 --> 00:07:13,430 [sighs] 147 00:07:16,330 --> 00:07:18,120 [birds singing] 148 00:07:23,650 --> 00:07:25,440 ♪ 149 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:32,170 Have you figured it out yet? 150 00:07:33,170 --> 00:07:34,350 Figured what out? 151 00:07:36,520 --> 00:07:38,630 Why I seem so familiar to you. 152 00:07:40,830 --> 00:07:42,180 I don't know what you mean. 153 00:07:43,630 --> 00:07:45,150 [chuckles] Come on. 154 00:07:45,180 --> 00:07:47,770 Every time you think I'm not looking, 155 00:07:47,810 --> 00:07:49,980 you're looking. 156 00:07:51,150 --> 00:07:52,500 Am I? 157 00:07:52,540 --> 00:07:54,500 It's driving you nuts, isn't it? 158 00:07:54,540 --> 00:07:55,950 [exhales] 159 00:07:55,990 --> 00:07:58,850 I was on a TV show called Failed System. 160 00:07:58,890 --> 00:08:00,300 You were on a TV show. 161 00:08:00,340 --> 00:08:01,680 Series regular. 162 00:08:01,720 --> 00:08:04,620 Big network show about a young team of lawyers 163 00:08:04,650 --> 00:08:06,170 who fight to get the wrongly accused out of prison. 164 00:08:06,200 --> 00:08:07,970 Wow, a TV star. 165 00:08:08,000 --> 00:08:10,210 Hardly. 166 00:08:10,240 --> 00:08:13,320 That show lasted exactly 13 episodes. 167 00:08:13,350 --> 00:08:15,350 Well, seven. That's all they aired. 168 00:08:15,390 --> 00:08:16,530 Then it got cancelled. 169 00:08:16,560 --> 00:08:19,390 But every once in a while, 170 00:08:19,420 --> 00:08:21,220 someone gets that same look you have. 171 00:08:21,250 --> 00:08:24,840 Like... they know me from someplace. 172 00:08:24,880 --> 00:08:26,500 Well, maybe that's it, then. 173 00:08:28,540 --> 00:08:31,060 Or maybe I just like looking at you. 174 00:08:33,920 --> 00:08:35,720 Then why haven't you tried to kiss me? 175 00:08:37,200 --> 00:08:38,690 I didn't know you wanted me to. 176 00:08:38,720 --> 00:08:41,000 Mm, no. 177 00:08:41,030 --> 00:08:42,900 That's not it. 178 00:08:42,930 --> 00:08:45,240 I think it's something else. 179 00:08:47,070 --> 00:08:48,560 I think you're very careful 180 00:08:48,590 --> 00:08:50,530 about letting people into your life. 181 00:08:50,560 --> 00:08:52,180 And not because you've been hurt. 182 00:08:52,220 --> 00:08:53,460 I mean, who hasn't been? 183 00:08:55,220 --> 00:08:57,080 I think you're cautious because... 184 00:08:58,710 --> 00:09:02,570 ...you have more to give than you think anyone can take. 185 00:09:05,890 --> 00:09:08,090 Sounds like you've been looking, too. 186 00:09:12,130 --> 00:09:14,930 -[indistinct P.A. announcement] -[phones ringing] 187 00:09:14,960 --> 00:09:17,030 Hey, I got a message 188 00:09:17,070 --> 00:09:18,900 about an emergency with one of my patients? 189 00:09:18,930 --> 00:09:20,730 [Athena] Mr. Casey? 190 00:09:20,760 --> 00:09:22,380 Hey, sorry, just one second, I'm dealing with-- 191 00:09:22,420 --> 00:09:25,040 A patient emergency, I know. 192 00:09:25,080 --> 00:09:27,040 I'm the one who asked them to call you. 193 00:09:27,080 --> 00:09:29,290 You're Captain Nash's wife. 194 00:09:29,320 --> 00:09:31,700 I'm sorry, I just needed to talk to you. 195 00:09:31,740 --> 00:09:34,740 So you lied to my coworkers and faked an emergency? 196 00:09:34,780 --> 00:09:36,950 I didn't lie about anything. 197 00:09:36,990 --> 00:09:39,470 I think my husband is in trouble. 198 00:09:39,500 --> 00:09:42,090 And you may be the only person who can help me save him. 199 00:09:47,750 --> 00:09:49,310 So he never told you he was thinking about quitting? 200 00:09:49,340 --> 00:09:52,590 No, but honestly, I don't think he did think about it. 201 00:09:52,620 --> 00:09:55,760 I mean, it felt impulsive. 202 00:09:55,800 --> 00:09:58,490 Well, admittedly, I don't know your husband very well, 203 00:09:58,520 --> 00:10:01,910 but Nash doesn't seem like the impulsive type. 204 00:10:01,940 --> 00:10:03,740 Well, normally, he isn't. 205 00:10:03,770 --> 00:10:05,740 But then again, 206 00:10:05,770 --> 00:10:08,640 normally he wouldn't drive alone into the middle of a desert 207 00:10:08,670 --> 00:10:10,610 to have a conversation with a man 208 00:10:10,640 --> 00:10:12,090 who doesn't want to talk to him. 209 00:10:12,120 --> 00:10:14,130 Okay, that's fair. 210 00:10:16,470 --> 00:10:19,100 I realize that... 211 00:10:19,130 --> 00:10:21,650 this probably sounds crazy. 212 00:10:21,690 --> 00:10:24,310 A silly wife with too much time on her hands. 213 00:10:24,340 --> 00:10:27,000 No, those aren't words I would use to describe you. 214 00:10:27,040 --> 00:10:29,000 But... 215 00:10:29,040 --> 00:10:31,490 is there a chance you're reading into it too much? 216 00:10:31,520 --> 00:10:33,770 The one thing that you have to learn 217 00:10:33,800 --> 00:10:35,660 in my line of work 218 00:10:35,700 --> 00:10:37,670 is how to read people. 219 00:10:37,700 --> 00:10:39,500 It's easy 220 00:10:39,530 --> 00:10:41,530 to get caught up in what they're saying 221 00:10:41,570 --> 00:10:43,850 and how they're moving. 222 00:10:43,880 --> 00:10:45,540 And really easy to miss 223 00:10:45,570 --> 00:10:48,130 what's really going on under the surface. 224 00:10:48,160 --> 00:10:51,200 If you know what to look for, 225 00:10:51,230 --> 00:10:53,200 there's this moment 226 00:10:53,230 --> 00:10:56,130 and you can see them when they decide 227 00:10:56,170 --> 00:10:58,650 they have nothing left to lose. 228 00:10:58,690 --> 00:11:01,660 It just ripples across their face. 229 00:11:01,690 --> 00:11:04,560 And you think you see that look on your husband's face? 230 00:11:06,180 --> 00:11:09,390 For years, Bobby has been walking... 231 00:11:09,420 --> 00:11:11,840 this tightrope. 232 00:11:11,870 --> 00:11:13,880 Trying to embrace the life 233 00:11:13,910 --> 00:11:16,390 that he has now while... 234 00:11:16,430 --> 00:11:19,160 honoring the one that he left behind. 235 00:11:19,190 --> 00:11:23,160 And it was a delicate balance. 236 00:11:23,190 --> 00:11:26,060 Your arrival in his life has upset 237 00:11:26,090 --> 00:11:28,200 that equilibrium. 238 00:11:29,370 --> 00:11:31,340 He's fallen, Mr. Casey. 239 00:11:31,380 --> 00:11:33,720 And I need you to help him find his way 240 00:11:33,760 --> 00:11:36,590 back to solid ground. 241 00:11:38,620 --> 00:11:40,210 ["I Hear the Day Has Come" by Matt Maltese playing] 242 00:11:51,570 --> 00:11:53,260 [alarm ringing] 243 00:11:55,230 --> 00:11:57,750 ♪ See the girl♪ 244 00:11:57,780 --> 00:12:00,440 ♪ Stand...♪ 245 00:12:00,470 --> 00:12:03,230 All right, get me a ladder up to that second floor! 246 00:12:03,270 --> 00:12:07,240 ♪ See the old friends♪ 247 00:12:07,270 --> 00:12:09,760 ♪ Sit and talk♪ 248 00:12:09,790 --> 00:12:11,620 You look lost. 249 00:12:11,660 --> 00:12:13,590 [Hen sighs] 250 00:12:13,620 --> 00:12:16,770 This adoption paperwork is kind of overwhelming. 251 00:12:16,800 --> 00:12:18,040 I thought you said the adoption hearing was just a formality. 252 00:12:18,080 --> 00:12:20,560 You know me, prepare for the worst. 253 00:12:20,600 --> 00:12:22,880 [Bobby] I think that's pretty much the entire LAFD handbook. 254 00:12:22,910 --> 00:12:24,260 You got this. 255 00:12:24,290 --> 00:12:25,570 Mara's been through so much. 256 00:12:25,600 --> 00:12:26,780 I just want her to know 257 00:12:26,810 --> 00:12:28,400 she finally is a part of a family again. 258 00:12:28,430 --> 00:12:31,400 You just welcome her into your family the way 259 00:12:31,440 --> 00:12:32,440 you welcomed me into this one, and she'll be fine. 260 00:12:33,680 --> 00:12:35,440 Just don't forget. 261 00:12:35,470 --> 00:12:36,920 Mara and Denny aren't the only kids 262 00:12:36,960 --> 00:12:39,750 you're raising, Mother Hen. 263 00:12:41,000 --> 00:12:44,310 ♪ See your father♪ 264 00:12:44,340 --> 00:12:46,450 ♪ In your mother's arms...♪ 265 00:12:46,480 --> 00:12:49,900 Hold on. All right, Ravi, why do we fold these to the edge? 266 00:12:49,940 --> 00:12:51,800 -It's protocol. -That's right, but 267 00:12:51,840 --> 00:12:54,630 if you leave a loop and stick your arm through like so, 268 00:12:54,670 --> 00:12:56,120 makes for a faster carry. 269 00:12:56,150 --> 00:12:58,910 ♪ See the writer...♪ 270 00:12:58,950 --> 00:13:00,810 [Bobby] That's it, Ravi. 271 00:13:00,840 --> 00:13:03,260 Double time, up the stairwell. 272 00:13:03,290 --> 00:13:04,990 Second floor, let's go, go, go, go! 273 00:13:05,020 --> 00:13:07,090 ♪ They've seen it all, but they ain't♪ 274 00:13:07,130 --> 00:13:09,440 ♪ Seen this before...♪ 275 00:13:09,470 --> 00:13:11,100 -All set. -All right. 276 00:13:11,130 --> 00:13:13,790 ♪ And I might have it wrong♪ 277 00:13:17,310 --> 00:13:18,830 -What, uh, what are you making? -Not me. 278 00:13:18,860 --> 00:13:20,100 You. 279 00:13:20,140 --> 00:13:21,800 Wha-- Uh... 280 00:13:21,830 --> 00:13:23,970 You're the chef tonight. Let's see what you got. 281 00:13:26,520 --> 00:13:29,360 Dispatch, I need an additional four rescue units 282 00:13:29,390 --> 00:13:32,150 and four task force units, let's go! 283 00:13:32,190 --> 00:13:34,150 Eddie, I was going through some things, 284 00:13:34,190 --> 00:13:36,470 and I found this. Made me think of you. 285 00:13:36,500 --> 00:13:37,710 Just hang onto it. 286 00:13:37,740 --> 00:13:39,330 It might come in handy. 287 00:13:40,570 --> 00:13:43,510 ♪ I could swim♪ 288 00:13:43,540 --> 00:13:47,720 ♪ It might all just be all right♪ 289 00:13:47,750 --> 00:13:50,720 ♪ Hey...♪ 290 00:13:50,760 --> 00:13:53,830 I can't believe you're letting him cook again. 291 00:13:53,860 --> 00:13:54,830 Well, he's gotten so good at it. 292 00:13:54,860 --> 00:13:56,180 Well, he had a good teacher. 293 00:13:57,560 --> 00:13:58,970 ♪ See the painters...♪ 294 00:13:59,010 --> 00:14:01,350 All right, they're coming out now. 295 00:14:01,390 --> 00:14:04,870 ♪ Paint once more♪ 296 00:14:04,910 --> 00:14:07,670 ♪ They've seen it all♪ 297 00:14:07,700 --> 00:14:12,540 ♪ But they ain't seen this before♪ 298 00:14:18,540 --> 00:14:21,030 ♪ And I might have had it wrong♪ 299 00:14:25,720 --> 00:14:29,000 ♪ But I hear the day has come...♪ 300 00:14:29,040 --> 00:14:31,590 My work here is done. 301 00:14:31,620 --> 00:14:34,250 [laughter] 302 00:14:34,280 --> 00:14:38,040 ♪ I might have had it wrong♪ 303 00:14:41,220 --> 00:14:45,780 ♪ But I hear the day has come.♪ 304 00:14:45,810 --> 00:14:47,780 [exhales] 305 00:14:47,810 --> 00:14:49,540 Uh, hey, Cap. 306 00:14:49,570 --> 00:14:51,230 You were really on your game this shift. 307 00:14:51,260 --> 00:14:53,030 And I'm not just talking about your cooking. 308 00:14:53,060 --> 00:14:55,030 Uh, wow, uh... 309 00:14:55,060 --> 00:14:56,410 thanks. 310 00:14:56,440 --> 00:14:58,750 Yeah. 311 00:14:58,790 --> 00:15:00,900 Buck, I don't say this often enough. 312 00:15:00,930 --> 00:15:03,240 You've come a really long way. 313 00:15:03,280 --> 00:15:04,930 You're not the same impulsive hothead 314 00:15:04,970 --> 00:15:06,450 who walked through those doors seven years ago. 315 00:15:08,800 --> 00:15:10,210 Wow, has it, uh, 316 00:15:10,250 --> 00:15:11,630 has it really been that long? 317 00:15:11,660 --> 00:15:13,800 It has. 318 00:15:15,080 --> 00:15:17,220 Well, here's to seven more. 319 00:15:17,260 --> 00:15:18,950 Yeah. 320 00:15:18,980 --> 00:15:20,430 You going to see Tommy? 321 00:15:21,780 --> 00:15:23,400 Listen, uh... 322 00:15:23,430 --> 00:15:25,260 I kn-- I know we haven't really talked about him. 323 00:15:25,300 --> 00:15:27,230 Well, what's there to talk about? 324 00:15:27,270 --> 00:15:29,160 Tommy's good people, he's good for you. 325 00:15:30,440 --> 00:15:32,240 How do you know that? 326 00:15:32,270 --> 00:15:33,650 'Cause we haven't had to talk about it. 327 00:15:33,690 --> 00:15:35,790 [chuckles softly] Good night, Buck. 328 00:15:36,970 --> 00:15:38,760 Oh, uh, hey, uh... 329 00:15:38,790 --> 00:15:40,830 -Cap? -Yeah? 330 00:15:43,280 --> 00:15:45,590 Thanks. 331 00:15:45,630 --> 00:15:47,490 You know... 332 00:15:47,530 --> 00:15:49,360 for everything. 333 00:15:50,980 --> 00:15:52,710 It's been my pleasure, kid. 334 00:15:57,710 --> 00:15:59,820 [exhales] 335 00:15:59,850 --> 00:16:01,470 [Buck] Uh... 336 00:16:01,510 --> 00:16:03,790 Hey, can I help you? 337 00:16:03,820 --> 00:16:05,440 Hi, yeah, um... 338 00:16:05,480 --> 00:16:07,310 I'm looking for Eddie Diaz? 339 00:16:08,820 --> 00:16:11,620 Sorry, this is the 118 340 00:16:11,660 --> 00:16:13,970 fire station, right? 341 00:16:14,000 --> 00:16:16,280 [stammering] Uh, yes, yes. 342 00:16:16,320 --> 00:16:18,460 Uh, you-you said 343 00:16:18,490 --> 00:16:20,530 -you were looking for Eddie? -Yeah. 344 00:16:20,560 --> 00:16:22,670 I made brownies. 345 00:16:22,700 --> 00:16:24,290 I-I'm sorry. 346 00:16:24,320 --> 00:16:25,700 Who-who did you say you were? 347 00:16:25,740 --> 00:16:27,020 I'm Kim. 348 00:16:27,050 --> 00:16:29,290 Kim. 349 00:16:29,330 --> 00:16:31,990 You know, you-you actually just missed him. 350 00:16:33,370 --> 00:16:35,130 Well, shoot. 351 00:16:35,160 --> 00:16:36,340 Guess I should've called first. 352 00:16:38,160 --> 00:16:40,300 Would you mind giving him these for me? 353 00:16:40,340 --> 00:16:42,650 Uh, yeah. [chuckles] 354 00:16:42,690 --> 00:16:45,340 Tell him I'll just get the dish back next time I see him. 355 00:16:45,380 --> 00:16:46,660 Sure. 356 00:16:46,690 --> 00:16:48,040 Thanks. 357 00:16:48,070 --> 00:16:49,900 Place looks bigger in person 358 00:16:49,930 --> 00:16:51,560 than it does on FaceTime. 359 00:16:51,590 --> 00:16:53,700 Bye. 360 00:16:59,770 --> 00:17:01,710 [knocking at door] 361 00:17:03,220 --> 00:17:04,500 Hey. 362 00:17:04,540 --> 00:17:06,330 Uh, hey. 363 00:17:06,360 --> 00:17:08,020 Uh... can I come in? 364 00:17:08,060 --> 00:17:10,610 [chuckles] Of course. 365 00:17:13,540 --> 00:17:15,890 Why are you skulking around my back door? 366 00:17:15,930 --> 00:17:18,410 Well, I just, I wasn't sure who would be here. 367 00:17:18,450 --> 00:17:19,900 Well, Chris is in his room. 368 00:17:19,930 --> 00:17:21,380 We just had dinner. 369 00:17:21,410 --> 00:17:24,040 Okay, but Marisol, she's not, right? 370 00:17:24,070 --> 00:17:25,760 No. 371 00:17:25,800 --> 00:17:28,040 Why are you acting so weird? 372 00:17:29,280 --> 00:17:30,600 Something in those brownies? 373 00:17:30,630 --> 00:17:33,600 Uh, that's maybe a good question. 374 00:17:33,630 --> 00:17:35,880 Um... I don't know. 375 00:17:35,910 --> 00:17:37,880 Buck, what's going on? 376 00:17:37,910 --> 00:17:39,570 Uh, you remember 377 00:17:39,610 --> 00:17:41,880 when Shannon brought 378 00:17:41,920 --> 00:17:44,200 a donation to the Christmas toy drive 379 00:17:44,230 --> 00:17:46,720 at the firehouse and that was, uh, 380 00:17:46,750 --> 00:17:49,100 that was kind of surprising, right? 381 00:17:49,130 --> 00:17:51,070 [chuckles] What made you think of that? 382 00:17:52,930 --> 00:17:54,970 This was more surprising. 383 00:17:56,100 --> 00:17:58,110 Eddie, who-who's Kim? 384 00:18:03,420 --> 00:18:06,110 She came by the firehouse? 385 00:18:06,150 --> 00:18:07,390 She did. 386 00:18:07,430 --> 00:18:10,390 Uh, she brought some baked goods 387 00:18:10,430 --> 00:18:12,120 and she wanted to see you, Eddie. 388 00:18:12,160 --> 00:18:15,090 And she-she kind of made it seem like she was your girlfriend. 389 00:18:15,120 --> 00:18:17,300 She's not my girlfriend. 390 00:18:17,330 --> 00:18:19,090 Marisol's my girlfriend. 391 00:18:19,130 --> 00:18:21,130 Kim's just... 392 00:18:21,160 --> 00:18:22,750 a friend. 393 00:18:22,790 --> 00:18:24,930 Just a-a friend 394 00:18:24,960 --> 00:18:27,140 who's a dead ringer for your late wife? 395 00:18:28,140 --> 00:18:29,590 Yeah. 396 00:18:29,620 --> 00:18:32,110 What's going on here? 397 00:18:32,140 --> 00:18:34,140 Nothing. 398 00:18:34,180 --> 00:18:35,970 Nothing's going on. 399 00:18:42,810 --> 00:18:45,050 We met a couple weeks ago when we were at the Promenade. 400 00:18:47,160 --> 00:18:49,680 -We? -Yeah, me and Marisol and Christopher. 401 00:18:49,710 --> 00:18:52,300 Okay, great, they-they've met her? 402 00:18:52,330 --> 00:18:53,990 No. 403 00:18:54,890 --> 00:18:56,680 I mean, I s... I saw her. 404 00:18:56,720 --> 00:18:59,130 And... yeah. 405 00:18:59,170 --> 00:19:01,510 She looks a lot like Shannon. 406 00:19:01,550 --> 00:19:03,310 So I went back. 407 00:19:03,340 --> 00:19:06,860 Turns out, she's a really nice person, so... 408 00:19:06,900 --> 00:19:10,830 Uh, we struck up a kind of friendship, that's it. 409 00:19:10,870 --> 00:19:13,630 [wry chuckle] You, uh, you mean you're seeing her. 410 00:19:13,660 --> 00:19:15,870 We've hung out a few times. 411 00:19:15,910 --> 00:19:17,840 Okay? It's not like we're having an affair. 412 00:19:17,880 --> 00:19:19,010 Nothing's happened. 413 00:19:19,050 --> 00:19:21,360 You haven't had sex. 414 00:19:21,400 --> 00:19:23,470 Exactly. It's not even what I want from her. 415 00:19:23,500 --> 00:19:25,680 Okay, so what do you want? 416 00:19:29,020 --> 00:19:32,510 I... don't know. 417 00:19:32,550 --> 00:19:34,860 Does this poor woman know 418 00:19:34,890 --> 00:19:37,720 that she is a carbon copy of your dead wife? 419 00:19:37,760 --> 00:19:40,240 Hasn't really come up. 420 00:19:41,550 --> 00:19:43,900 I'm worried about you. 421 00:19:43,940 --> 00:19:46,180 Yeah. 422 00:19:46,210 --> 00:19:48,180 I'm worried about me, too. 423 00:19:51,120 --> 00:19:54,840 Okay. Who wants dessert? 424 00:19:54,880 --> 00:19:58,020 I got some freshly baked chocolate-chip cookies. 425 00:19:58,050 --> 00:20:00,020 Since when does he freshly bake? 426 00:20:00,060 --> 00:20:02,230 More like "freshly reheated." 427 00:20:02,270 --> 00:20:04,750 The actual baking happened at that new market on Third. 428 00:20:04,780 --> 00:20:06,410 Turned on an oven. That still counts. 429 00:20:06,440 --> 00:20:07,410 -[laughter] -[Denny] Can I have two? 430 00:20:07,440 --> 00:20:08,750 One for later? 431 00:20:08,790 --> 00:20:10,690 Uh, no, you cannot. 432 00:20:10,720 --> 00:20:12,760 [whispers] Meet me in the kitchen in ten minutes. 433 00:20:12,790 --> 00:20:14,210 I heard that. 434 00:20:14,240 --> 00:20:15,900 Karen has preternaturally sharp hearing. 435 00:20:17,730 --> 00:20:19,040 Hears everything. 436 00:20:19,070 --> 00:20:22,110 Can I have another cookie, please? 437 00:20:24,740 --> 00:20:25,740 Of course, sweetheart. 438 00:20:27,390 --> 00:20:28,390 [laughs] 439 00:20:30,120 --> 00:20:32,090 Great, now they're coconspirators. 440 00:20:32,120 --> 00:20:34,120 Aw, more like siblings. 441 00:20:34,160 --> 00:20:36,610 I can't believe how great she's doing. 442 00:20:36,640 --> 00:20:40,920 I-I think seeing her little brother was the key. 443 00:20:40,960 --> 00:20:43,060 You know, I finally feel like she trusts us 444 00:20:43,100 --> 00:20:45,380 and she wants to be part of our family. 445 00:20:45,410 --> 00:20:47,550 -[phone ringing] -Oh, that's me. Sorry. 446 00:20:47,590 --> 00:20:49,240 [Chimney] Cap, yesterday, 447 00:20:49,280 --> 00:20:50,590 he surprised me. He seemed different. 448 00:20:50,620 --> 00:20:51,940 What do you mean? He was in a great mood. 449 00:20:51,970 --> 00:20:54,250 Yeah, maybe too great of a mood. 450 00:20:54,280 --> 00:20:55,900 Especially after what he said at the ceremony. 451 00:20:55,940 --> 00:20:57,390 I feel like something's going on with him. 452 00:20:57,420 --> 00:20:59,150 I asked Athena about it. 453 00:20:59,180 --> 00:21:01,390 She said there was nothing to worry about? 454 00:21:01,430 --> 00:21:04,910 -But...? -She seemed worried. 455 00:21:04,950 --> 00:21:07,740 -About what? -[Karen] Hen? 456 00:21:07,780 --> 00:21:09,260 T-That was Deidre. Uh... 457 00:21:10,510 --> 00:21:12,090 Uh... 458 00:21:12,130 --> 00:21:16,130 Our adoption hearing was canceled. 459 00:21:16,170 --> 00:21:17,930 We're not going before the judge on Wednesday. 460 00:21:17,960 --> 00:21:19,270 Well, what happened? 461 00:21:19,310 --> 00:21:21,410 -They're rescheduling it? -No. 462 00:21:21,450 --> 00:21:24,490 No, it's... it's off the docket completely. 463 00:21:26,970 --> 00:21:30,180 Apparently, the judge has some concerns about our petition. 464 00:21:30,210 --> 00:21:32,940 Well, I thought this hearing was just a formality. 465 00:21:32,980 --> 00:21:35,290 It was supposed to be. 466 00:21:35,320 --> 00:21:36,430 [Karen] But what Deidre said, 467 00:21:36,460 --> 00:21:37,980 that she's never seen this happen before. 468 00:21:38,020 --> 00:21:39,670 She thinks that... 469 00:21:39,710 --> 00:21:40,780 well, someone must have talked to the judge, 470 00:21:40,810 --> 00:21:42,050 but she doesn't know who. 471 00:21:43,330 --> 00:21:44,230 I know exactly who. 472 00:21:49,540 --> 00:21:51,340 ♪ 473 00:21:56,660 --> 00:21:59,350 -Are you okay? -[Kim] I... 474 00:21:59,380 --> 00:22:01,140 [stammers] 475 00:22:01,180 --> 00:22:05,840 I mean, if I didn't know better, even I'd say this was me. 476 00:22:05,870 --> 00:22:09,150 Yeah. You even sound like her. 477 00:22:09,180 --> 00:22:12,190 But I'm not her. 478 00:22:13,670 --> 00:22:15,260 I know. 479 00:22:18,230 --> 00:22:19,990 She died? 480 00:22:20,020 --> 00:22:22,750 Almost five years ago, yeah. 481 00:22:27,860 --> 00:22:30,030 And this is your son? 482 00:22:31,030 --> 00:22:33,520 Yeah. 483 00:22:33,550 --> 00:22:35,210 That's Christopher. 484 00:22:37,210 --> 00:22:39,490 You know, I mean, um... 485 00:22:39,530 --> 00:22:44,190 My mind's kind of blown here, but, um... 486 00:22:44,220 --> 00:22:46,600 I guess now I know why you've kept things at a distance. 487 00:22:48,220 --> 00:22:52,540 Which was not fair to you. 488 00:22:54,710 --> 00:22:57,610 That's why I brought you here. I had to come clean, I... 489 00:22:59,890 --> 00:23:03,100 And tell you how incredibly sorry I am. 490 00:23:04,720 --> 00:23:07,900 I should have known you were too good to be true. 491 00:23:09,760 --> 00:23:11,700 I really liked you. 492 00:23:11,730 --> 00:23:13,870 [sighs heavily] 493 00:23:13,900 --> 00:23:16,530 [groans] I liked you, too. 494 00:23:16,560 --> 00:23:18,770 How can you know that? 495 00:23:20,120 --> 00:23:24,430 I mean, have you been spending time with me? 496 00:23:24,470 --> 00:23:26,090 Or with her? 497 00:23:31,270 --> 00:23:33,440 [softly] That's what I thought. 498 00:23:33,480 --> 00:23:38,480 I didn't realize how much I missed her. 499 00:23:39,830 --> 00:23:41,240 [Eddie sighs] 500 00:23:41,280 --> 00:23:42,970 Then I saw you. 501 00:23:45,110 --> 00:23:47,560 And for a moment, I even thought... 502 00:23:47,590 --> 00:23:50,080 She'd come back? 503 00:23:50,110 --> 00:23:51,630 Yeah. 504 00:23:54,150 --> 00:23:56,020 I mean, not really, uh, just... 505 00:23:58,290 --> 00:23:59,640 ...felt like she had. 506 00:24:03,130 --> 00:24:04,960 I never meant to lead you on. 507 00:24:06,300 --> 00:24:07,790 But you did. 508 00:24:11,340 --> 00:24:12,620 [sniffles] 509 00:24:17,350 --> 00:24:20,490 I guess she was the love of your life. 510 00:24:22,390 --> 00:24:23,970 I think she was. 511 00:24:25,490 --> 00:24:27,810 Yeah. 512 00:24:27,840 --> 00:24:30,360 Though I'm not sure I knew at the time. 513 00:24:31,980 --> 00:24:36,300 Shannon and I, we were apart more than we were together 514 00:24:36,330 --> 00:24:38,470 for most of our marriage. 515 00:24:38,510 --> 00:24:42,960 I was in the military and she was at home, 516 00:24:42,990 --> 00:24:45,960 in Texas, looking after our son. 517 00:24:46,000 --> 00:24:47,830 When I came back, we... 518 00:24:49,520 --> 00:24:50,520 ...tried. 519 00:24:53,180 --> 00:24:54,490 But it was difficult. 520 00:24:56,700 --> 00:24:58,350 Then she left. 521 00:24:59,530 --> 00:25:01,390 Then she came back. 522 00:25:02,670 --> 00:25:03,840 [Eddie exhales] 523 00:25:04,910 --> 00:25:06,500 And then she was gone. 524 00:25:09,360 --> 00:25:13,020 Well, it sounds like you two had some unfinished business. 525 00:25:14,540 --> 00:25:16,230 Yeah. 526 00:25:17,680 --> 00:25:20,860 Never did get to say all the things I wanted to say. 527 00:25:23,550 --> 00:25:27,040 Or hear all the things I needed to hear, I guess. 528 00:25:29,250 --> 00:25:30,900 I'm sorry I'm not her. 529 00:25:32,770 --> 00:25:34,290 Bye, Eddie. 530 00:25:35,600 --> 00:25:37,670 -Let me take you home? -No. 531 00:25:37,700 --> 00:25:39,220 I'm okay. 532 00:25:39,260 --> 00:25:41,050 ♪ 533 00:25:45,880 --> 00:25:47,130 [door closes] 534 00:25:48,400 --> 00:25:49,890 [knocking on door] 535 00:25:50,890 --> 00:25:52,580 [exhales] 536 00:25:52,620 --> 00:25:54,890 -Thanks for coming. -Sure. 537 00:26:00,590 --> 00:26:03,730 Bobby isn't here yet, but he should be home soon. 538 00:26:06,250 --> 00:26:09,080 -You have a beautiful home. -Thank you. 539 00:26:09,110 --> 00:26:10,870 Would you like a coffee while we wait? 540 00:26:10,910 --> 00:26:12,770 That'd be nice. Thank you. 541 00:26:14,910 --> 00:26:17,090 -How long have you lived here? -Let's see, 542 00:26:17,120 --> 00:26:20,750 well, May was a baby when Michael and I moved in 543 00:26:20,780 --> 00:26:25,230 and Harry wasn't even born yet, so almost 20 years. 544 00:26:25,270 --> 00:26:28,240 Um, Michael was my first husband. 545 00:26:28,270 --> 00:26:29,930 And he is... 546 00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:33,070 Living happily in Florida with hishusband. 547 00:26:33,100 --> 00:26:36,730 I really appreciate your doing this. 548 00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:38,970 Well, honestly, I don't know what it is I'm doing. 549 00:26:39,010 --> 00:26:41,420 Pep talks have never been my thing. 550 00:26:41,460 --> 00:26:44,150 Bobby is not normally someone who needs them. 551 00:26:44,180 --> 00:26:46,740 Truth is, he's usually the one who gives them. 552 00:26:46,770 --> 00:26:49,120 Can't help but wonder if, all these years, 553 00:26:49,150 --> 00:26:50,780 it's been a defense mechanism. 554 00:26:52,360 --> 00:26:55,750 Always focusing on someone else's problems 555 00:26:55,780 --> 00:26:58,990 makes it easier to ignore your own. 556 00:26:59,030 --> 00:27:00,790 So, the kids. 557 00:27:00,820 --> 00:27:04,510 -Yours and your ex's, I assume? -[Athena] Oh, yeah. 558 00:27:04,550 --> 00:27:07,760 I mean, they've come to really love Bobby. 559 00:27:07,790 --> 00:27:10,800 Well, he is a lucky man. 560 00:27:10,830 --> 00:27:13,970 Looks like he's found a great life for himself. 561 00:27:17,390 --> 00:27:19,150 ♪ 562 00:27:21,150 --> 00:27:23,400 [breathing heavily] 563 00:27:28,710 --> 00:27:31,300 I can't do this. 564 00:27:31,330 --> 00:27:34,650 I wish you and Captain Nash the best. I truly do. 565 00:27:34,680 --> 00:27:37,790 But I will not be the prop that keeps this man afloat. 566 00:27:37,820 --> 00:27:39,340 Wait. Please. 567 00:27:39,380 --> 00:27:41,660 Amir, what are you doing here? 568 00:27:41,690 --> 00:27:43,420 You really want to make amends? 569 00:27:45,900 --> 00:27:49,520 You and your wife need to stay the hell away from me. 570 00:27:52,740 --> 00:27:54,980 [door opens, closes] 571 00:27:55,010 --> 00:27:57,020 What the hell was that? 572 00:28:03,370 --> 00:28:04,850 -What were you thinking? -Bobby-- 573 00:28:04,890 --> 00:28:06,990 You know what he's been through, and what I put him through. 574 00:28:07,030 --> 00:28:08,370 You don't think that asking him to provide a shoulder for me 575 00:28:08,410 --> 00:28:10,170 to cry on is expecting a little too much? 576 00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:12,550 You won't talk to me, so I thought maybe you'd talk to him. 577 00:28:12,580 --> 00:28:13,830 Well, what do you expect me to say to him? 578 00:28:13,860 --> 00:28:16,720 Why did you really quit your job, Bobby? 579 00:28:16,760 --> 00:28:18,830 I told you, I'm tired and I'm-- I feel like a fraud 580 00:28:18,860 --> 00:28:19,830 and I need a break. 581 00:28:19,870 --> 00:28:23,350 Stop lying to me. 582 00:28:23,390 --> 00:28:25,080 ♪ 583 00:28:27,870 --> 00:28:30,080 Y-You know, 584 00:28:30,120 --> 00:28:32,360 I always knew that there was a part of you 585 00:28:32,400 --> 00:28:34,220 that I could never touch. 586 00:28:34,260 --> 00:28:36,740 That pain of losing your family. 587 00:28:36,780 --> 00:28:39,440 I could imagine what it must be like, 588 00:28:39,470 --> 00:28:41,720 but I can never really understand it. 589 00:28:41,750 --> 00:28:43,860 The best that I could do was to love you 590 00:28:43,890 --> 00:28:45,620 and hope that that was enough to keep you here. 591 00:28:45,650 --> 00:28:47,580 I'm not going anywhere. 592 00:28:47,620 --> 00:28:51,030 You're not? You barely sleep, you quit your job. 593 00:28:51,070 --> 00:28:53,210 You're making the rounds to say your goodbyes. 594 00:28:53,240 --> 00:28:55,380 Feels a little like... 595 00:28:55,420 --> 00:28:57,390 you're getting your affairs in order. 596 00:28:57,420 --> 00:28:59,040 No, no, no, I would never. 597 00:28:59,080 --> 00:29:01,740 You once stood on the ledge of a building 598 00:29:01,770 --> 00:29:05,080 and you were ready to step off to join your dead family. 599 00:29:05,120 --> 00:29:08,740 Athena, that was a long time ago and I was dosed on LSD. 600 00:29:08,780 --> 00:29:10,050 And that's what I told myself at the time. 601 00:29:10,090 --> 00:29:11,050 And that's what I tell myself 602 00:29:11,090 --> 00:29:13,750 every time you go to a dark place. 603 00:29:13,780 --> 00:29:16,780 But I still remember that look. 604 00:29:16,820 --> 00:29:20,890 And you're standing on the ledge of a building again, Bobby. 605 00:29:20,930 --> 00:29:22,510 [sighs] 606 00:29:30,830 --> 00:29:32,460 [Bobby] I'm not supposed to be here. 607 00:29:33,630 --> 00:29:35,770 I should've died in that fire. 608 00:29:35,800 --> 00:29:37,630 But you didn't. 609 00:29:47,990 --> 00:29:50,470 I made a plan to fix that. 610 00:29:50,510 --> 00:29:55,130 I kept this book with 148 lines in it. 611 00:29:55,170 --> 00:29:58,170 Every time I saved a life, I filled in the line. 612 00:29:58,210 --> 00:30:00,000 One life saved to repay one life lost. 613 00:30:00,030 --> 00:30:02,930 And what then? 614 00:30:02,970 --> 00:30:05,970 After you've saved the 148? 615 00:30:08,320 --> 00:30:09,870 I'm not supposed to be here. 616 00:30:11,150 --> 00:30:12,740 And where is that book now? 617 00:30:14,390 --> 00:30:17,850 I threw it in the trash on the night of our first date. 618 00:30:17,880 --> 00:30:21,330 All this time and you never told me that? 619 00:30:21,370 --> 00:30:23,750 I didn't want any of this to touch you. 620 00:30:26,850 --> 00:30:28,680 Too late. 621 00:30:39,690 --> 00:30:41,180 Damn it. 622 00:30:44,390 --> 00:30:46,180 [receptionist] Hey, you can't go in there. 623 00:30:46,220 --> 00:30:47,700 [Ortiz] Firefighter Wilson. 624 00:30:47,740 --> 00:30:50,020 I didn't see you in my calendar today. 625 00:30:50,050 --> 00:30:53,050 Is this an official LAFD visit? 626 00:30:53,090 --> 00:30:57,160 It's okay. Give us a minute, please. 627 00:30:57,200 --> 00:30:59,850 -[sighs] -Okay. Say your piece. 628 00:30:59,890 --> 00:31:01,750 [door closes] 629 00:31:01,790 --> 00:31:05,890 Look, I am truly, truly sorry for your loss. 630 00:31:05,930 --> 00:31:07,900 But that does not give you the right 631 00:31:07,930 --> 00:31:10,170 to use a little girl as a pawn 632 00:31:10,210 --> 00:31:12,000 in your revenge scheme against me. 633 00:31:12,040 --> 00:31:14,590 I'm just trying to help that little girl. 634 00:31:14,630 --> 00:31:17,080 Y-You think depriving her of a loving family, 635 00:31:17,110 --> 00:31:19,010 and a safe home, is-is helping? 636 00:31:19,040 --> 00:31:20,870 You think very highly of yourself, 637 00:31:20,910 --> 00:31:22,880 don't you, Firefighter Wilson? 638 00:31:22,910 --> 00:31:24,910 What does that even mean? 639 00:31:24,950 --> 00:31:27,090 I know you made an honest mistake when treating my son. 640 00:31:29,300 --> 00:31:31,710 I guess I should say not treating him. 641 00:31:31,750 --> 00:31:34,540 When I had my people look more closely in your records, 642 00:31:34,580 --> 00:31:37,060 I find a disturbing pattern. 643 00:31:37,100 --> 00:31:39,550 What the hell are you talking about? 644 00:31:39,580 --> 00:31:41,100 A year ago... 645 00:31:42,650 --> 00:31:46,800 ...a man died at a happiness convention? 646 00:31:46,830 --> 00:31:50,390 His family claims you delayed the extrication and he died 647 00:31:50,420 --> 00:31:51,420 on the scene. 648 00:31:51,460 --> 00:31:53,940 I-I had to make a-a choice. 649 00:31:53,980 --> 00:31:56,600 Misidentified cheerleaders. 650 00:31:57,840 --> 00:32:01,430 A suspicious incident in a bank vault. 651 00:32:01,470 --> 00:32:04,470 Questionable procedures in the field. 652 00:32:04,500 --> 00:32:06,230 I mean, did you really put your hands 653 00:32:06,260 --> 00:32:09,410 inside a man's chest cavity? 654 00:32:09,440 --> 00:32:15,000 I've only ever done my best to save lives. 655 00:32:18,100 --> 00:32:21,490 Evelyn Fischer, 17 years old, 656 00:32:21,520 --> 00:32:24,320 on her way to a concert at the Philharmonic. 657 00:32:24,350 --> 00:32:27,600 She was struck and killed by an ambulance 658 00:32:27,630 --> 00:32:28,940 driven by you. 659 00:32:30,810 --> 00:32:34,090 You really don't care about the pain that you're causing. 660 00:32:34,120 --> 00:32:39,090 Do not talk to me about pain. 661 00:32:39,120 --> 00:32:40,780 [phone ringing] 662 00:32:40,820 --> 00:32:43,960 I think you might want to take that call. 663 00:32:48,480 --> 00:32:49,820 Karen. 664 00:32:52,030 --> 00:32:53,380 What's wrong? 665 00:32:56,660 --> 00:32:58,140 I don't want to go. 666 00:32:58,180 --> 00:32:59,350 [Karen] Mara, it's going to be okay. 667 00:32:59,390 --> 00:33:01,010 -No, I don't want to go. -It's gonna be okay. 668 00:33:01,040 --> 00:33:03,980 [stammers] This is just really upsetting for her. 669 00:33:04,010 --> 00:33:05,010 Could we just take a beat, maybe? 670 00:33:05,050 --> 00:33:06,530 Just hang on, hang on a minute. 671 00:33:06,570 --> 00:33:07,530 Did you get in touch with Deidre? 672 00:33:07,570 --> 00:33:08,530 She said there's nothing she can do. 673 00:33:08,570 --> 00:33:10,810 They revoked our foster license, Hen. 674 00:33:10,850 --> 00:33:12,360 We didn't even have a hearing. 675 00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:14,300 -Come on, let's go. -[screams] 676 00:33:14,330 --> 00:33:16,020 -Don't touch my sister. -[Hen] Denny, no. 677 00:33:16,060 --> 00:33:17,370 Don't make this any worse. 678 00:33:17,400 --> 00:33:18,650 Mom, you can't let them take her. 679 00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:20,370 [exhales] 680 00:33:20,410 --> 00:33:22,000 Please. 681 00:33:22,030 --> 00:33:24,000 There's got to be a better way that we can do this. 682 00:33:24,030 --> 00:33:26,380 You're scaring the kids. 683 00:33:26,410 --> 00:33:28,040 I'm sorry, we have to take her. 684 00:33:28,070 --> 00:33:29,170 [Mara] But I want to stay here. 685 00:33:29,210 --> 00:33:31,560 We were supposed to be a family. 686 00:33:38,870 --> 00:33:42,530 Just... just give us a minute. 687 00:33:42,570 --> 00:33:44,190 Please? 688 00:33:54,720 --> 00:33:58,450 W-We are still a family. 689 00:33:59,720 --> 00:34:02,040 Even though we're not under the same roof. 690 00:34:02,070 --> 00:34:03,860 Okay? 691 00:34:03,900 --> 00:34:06,380 You are our daughter. 692 00:34:07,730 --> 00:34:08,970 And we love you. 693 00:34:10,460 --> 00:34:13,220 Don't you ever forget that. 694 00:34:18,400 --> 00:34:21,050 -Come on, Mara. -[crying] 695 00:34:25,090 --> 00:34:27,060 [sobbing] 696 00:34:35,930 --> 00:34:37,760 [knocking at door] 697 00:34:44,940 --> 00:34:46,080 Hi. 698 00:34:47,940 --> 00:34:50,260 What-- What are you doing here? 699 00:34:50,290 --> 00:34:52,260 You are alone, aren't you? 700 00:34:53,950 --> 00:34:55,300 Y-Yeah. 701 00:34:57,850 --> 00:35:00,750 I don't feel like we said everything we... 702 00:35:00,780 --> 00:35:02,610 needed to say. 703 00:35:14,040 --> 00:35:15,250 Kim, what are you doing? 704 00:35:15,280 --> 00:35:16,970 Who's Kim? 705 00:35:18,630 --> 00:35:21,250 Oh, God, you really do look just like her. 706 00:35:21,290 --> 00:35:22,810 Like who? 707 00:35:24,190 --> 00:35:25,670 Like Shannon. 708 00:35:25,700 --> 00:35:28,260 Maybe I am. 709 00:35:28,290 --> 00:35:30,470 -Kim... -And maybe there are things you need to say. 710 00:35:30,500 --> 00:35:32,780 Things that you never got the chance to say. 711 00:35:32,820 --> 00:35:34,160 Let me hear them. 712 00:35:34,200 --> 00:35:35,470 I really appreciate what you're trying to do-- 713 00:35:35,510 --> 00:35:37,610 Our time together was too short. 714 00:35:37,650 --> 00:35:39,480 Eddie, we were apart more than we were together. 715 00:35:39,510 --> 00:35:40,480 Please stop. 716 00:35:40,510 --> 00:35:43,170 Just say what you need to say. 717 00:35:43,210 --> 00:35:44,650 -[sighs] I can't do this. -You have to. 718 00:35:45,830 --> 00:35:47,450 You have to let me go. 719 00:35:47,490 --> 00:35:49,490 I don't want to. 720 00:35:49,520 --> 00:35:51,800 Just let it out, baby. 721 00:35:51,830 --> 00:35:53,970 Because I am right here. 722 00:35:54,010 --> 00:35:56,050 No, you're not. 723 00:35:58,840 --> 00:36:00,360 You left me... 724 00:36:02,220 --> 00:36:03,090 ...Shannon. 725 00:36:05,020 --> 00:36:06,680 Why? 726 00:36:07,920 --> 00:36:09,540 I thought you loved me. 727 00:36:09,580 --> 00:36:10,680 I did. 728 00:36:11,680 --> 00:36:13,170 I do. 729 00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:14,890 But not enough? 730 00:36:14,930 --> 00:36:17,170 Not enough to stay? 731 00:36:17,200 --> 00:36:19,070 Christopher got a letter. 732 00:36:20,900 --> 00:36:23,110 You at least tried to explain it to him. 733 00:36:24,350 --> 00:36:27,250 What about me? Where was my letter? 734 00:36:28,870 --> 00:36:33,010 All I got was a note saying you had gone. 735 00:36:33,050 --> 00:36:34,910 I know I wasn't a perfect husband. 736 00:36:34,950 --> 00:36:37,090 I did my fair share of running, too, but... 737 00:36:38,950 --> 00:36:40,680 ...I came back. 738 00:36:40,710 --> 00:36:44,090 Not because of some obligation, 739 00:36:44,130 --> 00:36:47,680 but because I couldn't imagine a life without... 740 00:36:47,720 --> 00:36:49,410 [exhales] 741 00:36:50,760 --> 00:36:52,240 ...without you. 742 00:36:54,280 --> 00:36:57,930 [chuckles] And you know what? 743 00:36:57,970 --> 00:36:59,420 I still can't. 744 00:37:01,080 --> 00:37:02,730 But I'm still living it. 745 00:37:04,390 --> 00:37:08,150 But it's broken. I'mbroken. 746 00:37:10,910 --> 00:37:12,430 And I can't fix it. 747 00:37:13,950 --> 00:37:16,610 This is the life I have now. 748 00:37:18,580 --> 00:37:21,920 This is the life from now on. 749 00:37:24,310 --> 00:37:25,650 The life... 750 00:37:28,310 --> 00:37:30,000 ...without you. 751 00:37:32,110 --> 00:37:35,770 You were supposed to be here with me, baby. 752 00:37:39,840 --> 00:37:41,770 And now you're not. 753 00:37:48,810 --> 00:37:50,610 And you never will be. 754 00:38:00,510 --> 00:38:02,280 I'm sorry. 755 00:38:12,010 --> 00:38:14,320 [Marisol] Oh. Okay. 756 00:38:14,360 --> 00:38:16,010 [Marisol chuckles] 757 00:38:20,190 --> 00:38:21,020 Mom? 758 00:38:23,990 --> 00:38:25,990 [glass clanking softly] 759 00:38:39,380 --> 00:38:41,210 [glass clanking] 760 00:38:46,490 --> 00:38:49,050 Oh, hey, son. I didn't wake you, did I? 761 00:38:50,360 --> 00:38:51,500 No, it's okay. 762 00:38:51,530 --> 00:38:53,330 Hey, can I pour you a drink? 763 00:38:57,360 --> 00:38:58,680 Just don't tell your mother. 764 00:39:00,060 --> 00:39:01,990 I don't think I'm supposed to. 765 00:39:02,020 --> 00:39:04,340 Oh, come on. It's a celebration. 766 00:39:04,370 --> 00:39:05,820 What are we celebrating? 767 00:39:05,860 --> 00:39:08,690 You, my son, the hero. 768 00:39:08,720 --> 00:39:10,340 I am not a hero. 769 00:39:10,380 --> 00:39:11,690 Sure you are. 770 00:39:12,900 --> 00:39:16,000 No. People keep calling me that, but it's a lie. 771 00:39:16,040 --> 00:39:17,490 [chuckles] 772 00:39:17,520 --> 00:39:19,870 Then why did they give you that? 773 00:39:23,940 --> 00:39:27,220 [grunts, strains] 774 00:39:27,260 --> 00:39:31,020 It's heavy, am I right? [chuckles] 775 00:39:31,050 --> 00:39:32,370 I can't breathe with this thing on. 776 00:39:32,400 --> 00:39:35,020 Dad. Help me take it off. 777 00:39:35,060 --> 00:39:37,510 No, son. Sorry. 778 00:39:37,540 --> 00:39:39,130 That one's yours. 779 00:39:41,410 --> 00:39:43,860 Mm! But I did make you something. 780 00:39:43,890 --> 00:39:45,270 [laughs] 781 00:39:45,310 --> 00:39:47,550 Oh, I think you're gonna love it. 782 00:39:49,450 --> 00:39:52,280 It's got all the people that you didn't save. 783 00:40:02,080 --> 00:40:04,880 I'm sorry I couldn't save you, Dad. 784 00:40:04,910 --> 00:40:08,090 I was supposed to save you, kid. 785 00:40:08,120 --> 00:40:10,890 Now I guess you got to save yourself. 786 00:40:10,920 --> 00:40:12,580 [echoing] Do you smell that? 787 00:40:12,610 --> 00:40:14,130 [sharp inhale] 788 00:40:17,580 --> 00:40:19,170 [fire crackling] 789 00:40:22,450 --> 00:40:24,000 Athena! 790 00:40:31,630 --> 00:40:33,120 [panting] 791 00:40:37,600 --> 00:40:38,570 Athena! 792 00:40:38,600 --> 00:40:40,190 Ah! 793 00:40:43,780 --> 00:40:45,160 Athena! 794 00:40:45,200 --> 00:40:47,160 Hey! Athena! 795 00:40:47,200 --> 00:40:49,170 Hey, Athena, can you hear me? 796 00:40:54,830 --> 00:40:56,350 [grunts] 797 00:41:02,390 --> 00:41:04,180 [grunting] 798 00:41:09,810 --> 00:41:10,670 Come on. Come on, baby. 799 00:41:10,700 --> 00:41:11,980 Come on. Come on. 800 00:41:24,340 --> 00:41:26,310 Athena, can you hear me? 801 00:41:26,340 --> 00:41:28,340 -Come on, baby. Come on. -[approaching sirens] 802 00:41:28,380 --> 00:41:29,860 All right, come back to me. Come on. 803 00:41:29,900 --> 00:41:31,520 Come back to me. 804 00:41:31,550 --> 00:41:32,520 Come on. 805 00:41:32,550 --> 00:41:34,140 [sirens wailing] 806 00:41:34,180 --> 00:41:36,320 Come on, baby, come on. 807 00:41:36,350 --> 00:41:38,530 Come on, Athena. Come on. Come on. 808 00:41:41,080 --> 00:41:42,500 -[coughing] -There you go. Yeah. 809 00:41:42,530 --> 00:41:45,050 -There we go. Yeah. -[coughing, wheezing] 810 00:41:45,080 --> 00:41:47,150 Yep, there you go. You're all right. 811 00:41:47,190 --> 00:41:49,360 Yeah, you just breathe. You just breathe, okay? 812 00:41:49,400 --> 00:41:51,640 Hey, hey, hey, over here. Come on. 813 00:41:51,680 --> 00:41:53,540 She took in a lot of smoke. Get some O2 on her, now. 814 00:41:53,580 --> 00:41:56,540 [coughing] 815 00:41:56,580 --> 00:41:58,550 [panting] 816 00:41:58,580 --> 00:42:00,890 ♪ 817 00:42:00,930 --> 00:42:03,000 [thudding heartbeat] 818 00:42:03,030 --> 00:42:04,690 Uh... 819 00:42:06,040 --> 00:42:07,110 [groans] 820 00:42:08,690 --> 00:42:10,010 [groans] 821 00:42:10,040 --> 00:42:11,520 Captain Nash! Get the Lifepak! 822 00:42:15,080 --> 00:42:16,870 His heart stopped. 823 00:42:19,220 --> 00:42:21,090 [female EMT] Charge to 100. 824 00:42:21,120 --> 00:42:22,090 [male EMT] Charging. 825 00:42:22,120 --> 00:42:23,710 [defibrillator whines] 826 00:42:23,740 --> 00:42:25,470 -Clear. -[paddles thud]